Most of you have probably heard about writer’s block.
It happens when an author experiences a creative slowdown.
However, few know authors suffer often from imposture syndrome. I like to call it the “Writers Wall.”
Every writer encounters this question at some point on their journey: “What the hell am I doing?”
I faced this question myself in February 2023 when I finished writing the first draft of the fourth book in the “Leah Ackerman” series.
As AI took center stage, I wondered how long it would be before AI could craft a compelling story.
One thing led to another, and I doubted if it was even worth continuing my writing career.
Why invest so many hours, so many early mornings, in writing and rewriting?
No one likes to discuss this, but it’s a fact that the first few books and stories you publish probably won’t sell.
It’s normal and even expected.
Consider this: when was the last time you read something from an unknown author?
Now, add to that the notion that in the near future, AI might write a story in a few hours that took you, as an author, months or even years.
And let’s not even get into the whole marketing and promotion aspect because in this day and age, an author must also be a marketer. It doesn’t matter if you choose the Indie or Traditional route.
As I write this, my co-author and I have completed three out of the six books in our Leah Ackerman series, and we are still in the red.
The process is physically and mentally exhausting, causing constant self-doubt.
I went through this for months, all while planning my wedding, and it was driving me crazy.
However, it all came down to one question I encountered in a Brandon Sanderson YouTube video.
I asked myself: “Would I continue writing these stories, even if there’s a chance no one will ever read them?”
The honest answer was yes.
Of course, I want everyone to delve into the worlds I create, and I’ll do everything possible to make it happen.
But the truth is I write these stories because I love it.
From the painstaking daily word count goals to the rewriting process, the pure joy I experience when I finish a project and shared it with the world, giving life to my characters, is indescribable.
Like a good friend of mine told me, right before I began writing again, “The only way to make it is to continue writing. Any other option will lead to failure.”
This wall took me almost 6 months to overcome. What I learned was that, in the end, if you enjoy the journey, everything else becomes secondary.
Stay hopeful and keep pushing.
Question of the bi-week: When was the last time you’ve felt self-doubt?
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